Wishing Won't Bring You Back

Well actually, it might. Have you ever drifted away from someone that you wish you didn't? I remember I used to be the best of friends with someone in high school and afterwards we just drifted a part. We used to be so close. We used to share laughs and inside jokes. We used to call each other weird names. I miss that. I wish that I could casually call her up and ask her to hang out but I can't. I'm the type of person that if you don't make an effort to keep in contact with me, I just don't. It's just who I am. I'm not the one to "keep in touch". If you want to remain close to me, you have to make the effort. I know that sounds ridiculous and I should put in some effort to stay in contact but I just don't. It's not that I don't want to.. it's just hard for me I guess. I feel like if the other person wants to talk to me, then they will message me up. I know I should do some of the initiating of contact, but I just don't. It could be because I don't want to be a nuisance and so I just don't initiate conversations. I hope that you will read this and realize that it's about you. I miss you. I miss hanging out. I miss your mom. (: