Soulmate..s?

Do you ever wonder about soulmates? I know I have. I always think about it. I always question it. I always wonder.. is there only one? How many soulmates can one have? Is it not just supposed to be one? What if you believe someone is your soulmate.. but you're not theirs? What then? Are they truly not your soulmate since the feeling isn't reciprocated? What if you never get to meet your soulmate? Is it scary to think that you'll never meet your soulmate? That you may never marry them like you thought you would? Many people [I think] want to marry the love of their life, their soulmate. But really? How many of us can say we have even met our soulmate, if we ever will. What will you do then? What if you love someone but believe that they are not your soulmate, what then? My friend whom has a gf told me that he loves her but he believes that his soulmate is elsewhere. I looked at him puzzled. If he believes that she's his soulmate then what is stopping him? For one, his gf [whom he loves] and two, the alleged soulmates bf. I'm not sure where his logic is coming from but I guess it's his own decision. If I had the chance to be with my soulmate, I would not hesitate. But then again, there are these obstacles in the way. I wonder how many couples today can say they met their soulmate and married them. I'm sure it's quite low compared to all the people that are still looking for their soulmate. Wouldn't it be easier if we had a soulmate tracker? I think I can say I've met my soulmate. And I'm glad that I've even been given that chance. Because, there are those that are special enough to find it and embrace it yet others are still searching without any luck. Some may not even find their soulmate in this lifetime. I at least got to meet mine, even if it was just for a little bit.

Only One?

I feel like I don't really know how to define my fashion sense. I think I know what's in and what's not but sometimes, I don't know. I just wear whatever makes me comfortable. Usually though, I think of who I'm hanging out with and try to work my outfit around who I'm seeing that day. I realized this because the other day when I saw my friend, I thought about his style and then tried to wear something that would complement him. No, not in the couple-ish way. When I see couples that match it's cute, but when they go overboard with it, I'm kind of creeped out. I remember seeing a couple with matching sweaters, jackets, jeans and even shoes! That is wayyy too matchy-matchy for my taste. If I were ever to match with my bf, I'd want it to be subtle; like an accent colour or something. Anyways, back onto my style. My style is pretty much everywhere. I'm not any extreme though.. like hipster or anything but sometimes I have my days. Usually, I wear skinny jeans, flats, a tank or flowy top paired with a cardigan or blazer. This is usually my go-to option. It really depends on my mood. Dressed down, I wear jeans and v necks. My current fave tees are from Lucky 7, they are just soooo soft! I love that fall is just around the corner. It means cooler weather and layering. I love layering. Am I the only one that dresses depending on who I hang out with? I feel like it makes sense. I mean, you wouldn't want to stick out like a sore thumb, would you? I guess if you enjoy attention and whatnot. But, I'm already tall compared to my friends, so I think that's enough attention already.

My Favourite

I had a very busy day today. I got to meet up with one of my favourite friends whom I only get to see once or twice a year. We went camera shopping, was sent on a wild goose chase at the Bay, had yogen früz, korean bbq and other things that shall not be named. There was a lot of walking involved today and I feel too tired to even blog. Sorry my blogging hasn't been very frequent lately. I guess this gives you a chance to catch up on the stuff I've written in the past. Hope you're doing well!

Limits?

Would you date your friends ex? Is it "awkward"? Is it okay? Is it the "norm"? Under what circumstances? Here are my two cents.

I think that dating your friends ex is weird. Maybe it's just me, but I feel like I would constantly be worried about my friend and my now boyfriend [who is now their ex]. Thinking about it, just gives me a headache and weird vibes. Just think, your now boyfriend used to do everything he does with you to her..weird :S It's especially awkward if your friend used to gush to you about him and what he would do for her. I guess it would be different if you and your friend were not that close, then it would be slightly better.. but it's still weird. You might even begin to compare dates and what not and it could get pretty intense and competitive. I just think it's better to not get caught in that sticky web to begin with. Why would you want sloppy seconds anyways?

I don't want to be

You know what ruins friendships? Boys. Not just boys, but boyfriends in particular. I think the friends that I have, that have boyfriends, are so attached that they lose contact with their girlfriends and are swept away into a world that's just their own. I don't hear from them much anymore; it's sad really. I hate that once someone gets a boyfriend, they detach themselves from their friends and put their boyfriend first. I understand that it's a nice feeling to have someone to cuddle with and what not but really, it's just.. stupid. Call me bitter and cold but I've been through it. I used to put my boyfriends before my girlfriends. As sad as it sounds, when you're in the relationship I guess you don't see that it takes over you. Well here is a heads up to all you girls that are starting to fall for someone, have already fallen, are beginning a relationship or trying to maintain one; don't do it without friends. Try very very VERY hard not to fall into the trap of alienating friends. Because when the time comes that that boy, the one that supposedly loves you, breaks your heart, you're going to need backup. I've fallen victim of the trap, and I didn't realize it until it was after the relationships ended. Hopefully seeing it in print will allow me to remember easier for the next time I decide to let a boy in. Hopefully, this will remind you too. I don't want to be the girl that puts her boyfriend before her girlfriends anymore. I'm going to remember to have girls nights. But this works both ways. I don't want to be the girl that takes away a guy from his boy friends. I don't want his buddies to dislike me because I take up all his time and he doesn't have time to just "chill" with them anymore. You need a balance.

Mini Update!

Hi! It's been a while. Sorry I haven't been updating. I was without internet for about a week.. so I couldn't really blog.. LOL but I'm back! And hopefully it won't happen again any time soon. Let's see.. what have I been up to.. work, work and more work basically. I did get to see a few of my friends this past week. I had a bake day with my friend (pineapple upside down cake post coming soon) and I got to see my other two friends that I haven't seen in a while. I watched the movie "30 minutes or less", it was pretty good. Uhm, I went to a yogurt place where you build your own frozen yogurt and put toppings on it and what not. It's like yogurtland! We don't have one of those here in Canada.. I really want those HK and friends cups and spoons! AHHH cuteness overload :( This post is every where.. so sorry. I will try and come up with a more "put together" post soon! Hope you're all doing well (:

Not Strong Enough. .

I know I'm a bit late on the trend but I finally got the Urban Decay Naked Palette! I have been looking for it for a while now and once I found it in Shoppers I was a bit reluctant to get it. Especially since its S65.54 after tax [here in Canada] and I don't even use eye shadow. I mainly wanted the palette because EVERYONE else seemed to have it and felt a bit left out. So I passed on it the first time I saw it but ever since that day, I could not stop thinking about it. It was driving me so crazy! So today, I was in the mood to splurge on something so I ended up getting the damn palette. Maybe I'll force myself to wear eye shadow now since it did cost so much and I don't want my sister to use it all up! I swear she says I don't do anything for her but really this IS for her. I mean she uses eyeshadow daily so tbh, its more to her benefit than mine and she better appreciate it!

Doctor Doctor.

Yesterday, I felt very drowsy. I did nothing except sleep and eat. I don't know what's wrong with me, if there is something wrong with me. Am I going to sleep too late and waking up too early? Is it over-exhaustion? Is it sleep deprivation? I really don't know. I've also been having headaches. [I never get headaches]. They are on the left side of my head near the temporal lobe area. I have also been experiencing slight discomfort on my right side. This, I have experienced before but not in conjunction with the headaches. Breathing lately has also been a bit off. I'm not stressed. I'm not upset. I'm not anything. So I don't know why my body is failing me. I feel a bit drowsy now. Maybe I should really listen to my mum and go to the doctors. I haven't seen him in probably 2 years :S

Almost 3 years later..

I knew the day would come when you would have a girlfriend again. I've been waiting, preparing. I thought I was in a good place, to accept and not care. I thought it would just be whatever, I mean, it's been almost three years for goodness sakes. I guess I was hoping I'd be okay. That I'd be ready. That I could live if you were to move on. That you have been moving on. Truth is, I do care. I still care; after all this time; After all these years. I like that you've been able to move on. I'm happy for you, truly. You are very special and dear and although you may not know it or think it yourself, you are incredible. You were an incredible boyfriend. Seeing it for myself made my heart skip a beat. I don't think this will ever change. No amount of time will change the memories. Now go on, love. There's love waiting for you (:

I miss. .

I remember when I would sit here and think about you. I remember when I would just wait for hours and hours. I would sit here, on my bed, thinking about you. I remember your scent. It's amazing how thinking about your scent alone brings back so many memories. I wonder what would happen if I were to come across someone with the same scent; if I were to catch a whiff of it somehow. I wonder if you think about me. I wonder what you do when you're alone, in your room, on your bed. I wonder if you're waiting for me. I wonder how it would be like to just be close to you again. To smell you, to stare you in the eyes, to look into your soul. I wonder how it would be to steal a kiss (or two), to reach for your hand, to be in your embrace. I miss talking to you. I miss being close to you. I miss you. I've been missing you. When we talk, I often find myself grinning like an idiot, smiling just because.. well just because. I miss it. A lot.