Terribly Terrible

I'm terrible at hellos, goodbyes, forgiveness and fights. These are the four things I believe to be terrible at. First impressions mean a lot. They say that someone judges you within the first few minutes (maybe even seconds) upon meeting you. My friends say I have an unpleasant (to put it gently) aura. I think I'd have to agree. I may come off as snobbish, rude, or just a bitch. It's hard for me to talk to people. I'm not good at hellos. If you take the time to look past my hard exterior and try to know the real me, you'd see that I'm actually not all that bad. To be honest, I'm still a bitch but I'm a nicer version. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you. Once I get to know someone and I like who they are, I like to hold on to them. I'm not good at goodbyes. Be warned, if you do something bad to me directly or to one of my close friends, I'm not one to forgive. I often hold grudges and once a bridge has caught fire, I let it burn. I'm not good at forgiveness. If I get into a fight with someone, I'll try and work it out..but if the other person isn't willing to talk it out, neither will I. I never know what to say. I hate apologizing when I don't know what I did wrong. I hate the feeling of someone being mad at me. I'm not good at fights.