A Glimpse Into My Soul

Relationships are hard. They need lots of work and people that are willing to work hard on them. I never knew how much effort it took to keep a relationship until now. I used to breeze through relationships. When times got hard, I left. It was my modus operandi. I figured that it was just easier to leave then to try and work things out. But, I'm older now. I realize that relationships do need work; they do need effort.. you just can't breeze your way through them. With each conflict that we solve together, it builds us. It helps us to build stronger and better bonds. I'm not perfect.. I mess up.. a lot. I try my best though and I hope you see that. I hope that we'll continue to work on us. I can't imagine not having you. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes, a bitterness to my heart, a loss of breath, a trembling in my fingers, a silence in my head, and a fear that engulfs me. It has been a while since I've felt this way towards anyone. I know that we haven't been together long but I feel like we've known each other forever. I like that you have the same kind of humour, the weird moments we share that lead to contagious ugly laughs. I like lying next to you, breathing the same air. I like when we hold hands in the car and you let me shift for you (I think I'm getting better). I like going on adventures with you. I like when we think about the future and even plan for it. I like that you always make me feel better. I like when we kiss and cuddle. I like when you do little things like open my door first or kiss my hand randomly. I like everything that you do and I don't even mind that sometimes we don't agree on things. It would be boring if we both liked the same things and didn't disagree at all. I like that we've been able to work things out so far and I hope that we'll continue. I hope that we'll continue to bond and grow together (not apart). I want this forever (truly). I'm in love with you.