This is me.

Rosa Lin. This secretly insane girl who dreams of everything. Who dreams of her future, who wants things to play out perfectly. Who tries to move on but every time she thinks she's out.. something pulls her back in. I have a confession to make.. maybe it's not really a "confession" but more of a "hey, I'd like you to know" so here it goes.. Although you may never read this or even care enough to give it a look, I hope that one day you will or perhaps stumble upon it somehow.

I'm tired of hiding how I feel or remaining in secret.

You'll never know the impact you created on me if I don't tell you so here it is. The time we shared together was is something I cherished very much. With you, I felt happy. You were everything to me, everything I could ask for. You were a friend whom I spoke to everyday and developed a bond with. You were someone I admired very much and aspired to be the best that I could be. You taught me nothing a book or education could teach me. You taught me to love. I fell in love with you, quite hard I might add. I think I fell a bit too hard and a bit too fast but when you're in love you do the most absurd, irrational things. That was proven to me. I don't think any amount of words could describe how I felt for you nor do I think they ever will. I know that we are no longer together, that's sunken in already. In the time that we've been apart, I've tried to figure a lot of things out. I've played every scene in my head a million times; how we could have done things differently. And I've finally given up. I realize now that I will never get over you because you were and are my first love. Out of everyone else for some reason you're the one that has stayed with me. I dug a deep deep hole and was forced to climb out of it. I thought that's what I was supposed to do, climb and climb no matter how many times I fell back down. I was wrong. Instead of fighting against your existence, and trying to forget, I've learned to appreciate and remember the time we shared. I'll keep the memories of you because the future is unknown, changing with every decision I make, it is never crystal clear. The past however, has passed. It's there, never changing, a constant, a stabilizer. A piece of my heart will always belong to you regardless if you want it or not. I'll love you forever and always.. because I meant it when I said forever ;)

Half the time you were falling in love, and the other half falling out. For me, I was falling, and kept falling until I landed here, in the mariana trench of love. I may not be in love, but I still do love [you]